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What Trauma Does To You Emotionally — Not That I Care
My emotions fluctuate more than California's wildfires
Trauma, whether it be physical, mental, or emotional, has a way of compartmentalizing you into a subpar bracket of feelings.
Emotions can deviate rapidly and unknowingly. One second you feel comfortable, and the next moment, you get a whiff of a distinct memory and corkscrew into thoughtlessness.
I suffered severe neglect during my childhood. My parents go-to for discipline was being tossed into the dark, rat-infested basement for hours at a time, or when they woke up from their drinking binge.
Sometimes, we were tied to chairs, so they didn’t have to here us clawing at the door. I was maybe 4-years-old.
The abuse, physically and mentally, lasted until my father passed away when I was 11-years-old, which would soon be followed by much more abuse.
Am I crazy?
Sometimes I feel like I’m legitimately insane. I can spend days where I am so empathetic that a damn commercial will make me cry. Other days, not so much.
Childhood trauma can lead to shifts in your impulse control and cognitive functioning. It can inhibit your ability to handle stress later in life properly.
