Meghan Madness
2 min readJul 13, 2022

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The alcoholic in me wants to disagree. however, my addictive personality agrees. I came from home or both of my parents were so alcoholically abusive, that it was common for us to be duck taped to chairs to prevent parenting. Before I had my daughter three years ago, I would clear a bottle of Jamison, a six pack, at least four nights a week. After having my daughter, I quit drinking liquor. Why? Because liquor was my kryptonite. now. I drink beer. And while I understand that I have a feeling that I desire or need beer, I make sure to check myself. When her father gets home, and it’s time for bed, yes, I will crack open a couple of beers and write on Medium. yes, I have it in the back of my mind constantly that I want more. However, being a mother, I am differentiating between enjoying alcohol leisurely, and stopping myself from abusing alcohol. It is a slippery slope. I won hundred percent agree that the addiction to alcohol is way stronger than any drug. But me, in my current state, as a mother, will not allow myself to be intoxicated around my child, I will not allow my addiction to take over. And I think, while this article is 100% factual, that it all depends on the person. I held my mothers hand while I was pregnant with my child when she was dying because of being an alcoholic. And guess what she did? She asked me to get the nurse to allow her to go outside so she can have a drink. She died the next day. Yes, I enjoy drinking. But I will never, ever, fucking ever, allow a substance to deter me from being a mother. Pretty much what I’m saying, is that it takes a strong individual to understand the difference between addiction and leisure.

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Meghan Madness
Meghan Madness

Written by Meghan Madness

I Write about controversial subjects. Typically Religious.

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