I'm not afraid of death...none of this was sparked but fear. My life was nothing but torment, abuse, sexual mental and physical for 20+ years...my FEAR was me at the brink of ending myself AND MY CHILD...just a YEAR ago..I was an atheist who HATED God. Do not assume this is from fear, no, quite the contrary. My life was FEAR before Christ came and calmed my torment and trauma and I didn't even KNOW him. No Bible, no church, just Him.